53

1965 - 53! URGENT need for time travelling capabilities. This year ..... what can I say? I see the number - 53 and I don't believe it. In the whole scheme of things life is so so so short . REALLY short. It will be well used, VERY well used but it is short and that is becoming more and more apparent with every passing year. My Dad once said he would like an extended ride on this carousel and I agree. I know people will say come on don't be morbid it's only 53, but there it is. Kid #1 is 20! Kid #2 is ready to launch next September. I will be alone, time as a full time "away" mother begins. Scary (for me). Life is changing. Truthfully, I am not good at change and the adjustment may prove tough. This year, lots of good times, good hikes, good wine, good fires, good spins, good company, new friends, lots of Catan, new adventures, new places, Niagara, Tofino, Jasper, North Cascade Mountains,  new ideas, new projects and MANY new I. Am. HERE moments. Still though - 53. No changing that. Like it or not, past the halfway mark. So, I keep saying to myself  "enjoy", breathe", “kiss more”, "hug a little longer", "make videos in your head", "remember this moment", "absorb all of it",  "breathe in every inch of this", "be mindful" - like a relentless mantra for the aging.  Life in most of its forms, messy and uncertain. Love, love, love.